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holy shit, i haven't updated in forever. so, what the hell have i been doing with all my time? get this... so not me... i've been studying! apparently i've gone through this major change (or so people keep telling me) where i've become this weirdly responsible person. this in turn scares me, 'cause i don't wanna grow up. also, i'm fairly certain that i failed a test today, and this makes me so upset you don't even realize. i'll try to post again tomorrow, just to tell everyone what i got.
my grandmother is mega psycho during the holidays. i thought i was going to kill myself or her (and i was hoping for the latter) last sunday. for some odd reason, i've been getting up early on the weekends (like between 8am and 9am... and this is early for me people), and this seems to piss her off for some reason. so, when i got up on sunday, she started in on me right away. immediately after putting all my bed (sofa) stuff away, she yelled at me to move all my stuff out of the living room. for everyone who has never been to my house, i had my computer and everything i owned in a corner of the living room 'cause i have absolutely nowhere to put anything. not wanting to start the day with an arguement, i asked her (nicely, mind you) where i should put my computer and she starts yelling, "fine i won't get a tree then!" so, i kinda just looked at her for a moment, wondering where the hell that came from, before she stormed out of the house to kelly's. the entire day was like this. it was horrible. so, since then, i've decided to completely ignore her. i've had my fair share of fucked up christmases, and i'll be damned if i'm gonna let her ruin any more for me. so, there.
on the brighter side of the news, mariska hargitay was nominated for a golden globe. this of course makes me incredibly happy, as i'm in love with her (as if everyone didn't know). she doesn't stand a snowball's chance in hell of winning (which is so very depressing), but i'm still happy she got nominated.
this brings me to my next topic. tuesdays are usually my happy days, 'cause 'law & order: special victims unit' is on. well, it's a repeat. oh, and have i mentioned how totally crappy this season has been thus (did i really just use that word?) far? okay, granted there was that one really, really good olivia-centric episode... but besides that, most of the episodes sucked... big time. okay, i'm done ranting about that.
so, apparently the funniest woman in the world is single again. ellen degeneres' girlfriend broke up with her. poor ellen... well, at least this girlfriend wasn't a psycho...
my christmas shopping is almost completely done, which means less stress for me. yay! i want to have everything done and wrapped by the end of next weekend, because i can guarantee that i will be spending the entire week before christmas wrapping my grandmother's gifts. she of course wraps the ones she got me, but for pretty much the past 4 or 5 christmases in a row, i've wrapped everybody else's gifts. let me tell you, it's really fun for the rheumatoid arthritis (which i now spell correctly because of my medical assisting stuff).
oh! did i mention that i passed my clinical medical assisting exam? while i won't get the official certification until i graduate, i can now say that i am a "qualified" medical assistant. clinical medical assisting certification pretty much means i'm certified in phelbotomy (drawing blood... ohh, fun), EKGs, and vital signs. i want to concentrate on the phelbotomy aspect of it, 'cause as morbid as it sounds, it's fun. plus, after all these years, instead of people sticking needles in me, i get to stick needles in them! merry christmas to me!
well that was fun. if i disappear for a while (which i'll try not to do), hit up the cell... 1-860-218-5647!
getting into the holiday spirit,
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| | Current Music: | how does it feel? → avril lavigne | | Time: | 04:20 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/dwaggins/confused.gif) confused |
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okay, so i'm just so extremely frustrated with my life right now, and the most frustrating thing? i don't what exactly i'm frustrated about. i've done a lot of crying over the past couple of days. like, the other day i was watching the series finale of 'buffy the vampire slayer' and it was the last scene with spike and buffy, and i just totally burst into tears. yeah, the scene was emotional, and i do get emotional over stupid things like television shows... but i was still crying a half an hour after the show went over. so, what exactly is my problem? i have no idea...
okay, now i’m going to get slightly excited. tuesday night, for exactly one hour, i was thrilled. i was really worried about ‘law & order: special victims unit’ this season. so far, it’s been terrible. last night was the first olivia-centric episode of the season, and it fucking rawked!! mariska hargitay was awesome. i have never seen olivia benson get that emotional and pissed off in all the time svu has been on, and last night mariska’s performance was just amazing. so, i have a new favorite episode... uh... right next to “loss” and “wrath” (shut up beth ann). anyways, the episode was awesome, and it made me happy, and i hope the rest of svu this season will be just as good... i hope...
oh, i saw my social worker today. well, at this point everyone knows that i want to move out, and i've been looking for a roomie, right, 'cause me being the person i am... well, i'd probably go balistic if i moved out by myself. so, mykael and i have been playing around with the idea of getting an apartment together, and we talked to deb about it today. well, surprisingly enough, she thinks it's an excellent idea. so, hopefully i'll be able to get a car and mykael and i will be able to move out into our own place. only thing is... i feel really bad, 'cause not only will i be moving out of the house, but mykael will too, and that leaves my grandmother all by herself. i know she complains a lot about never having any time to herself, but really, if we're both gone, she won't know what to do with herself. seriously. i'm also afraid that she's going to thing she did something wrong, and it's really not about that... the fact is just that me and mykael have reached an age where we need to start being more independent, and to do that, we need to move out. i mean, let's face it people, i may look like a hobbit, but i'm gonna be 21 years old.
oh, did i mention that i finished ‘the l word?’ i was done with it like 2 days after i got... watched it whenever i had free time, and now i’m done. honestly, i wasn’t impressed with the first couple of episodes, but as it got further along, i was hooked. shall we go into detail with my likes and dislikes of the characters? no? then stop reading... if you are interested (which i doubt), keep reading.
first of all, we have bette porter. hott as hell, but i hate her. bette is a hypocrite... she ran around all season preaching to everyone about monogamy and how cheating was wrong, yet what did she turn around and do? oh, and of all the people in the world to cheat on, how could she cheat on tina??
okay, so now tina kennard... totally sweetheart. she totally should have decked that crazy asian chick. can’t believe she miscarried and was cheated on...
why the hell does everyone like marina ferrer so much?? she’s definitely not the hottest chick on the show, and uh, she’s a total bitch. as much as i hate jenny, what marina did to her was almost inhuman. then, she turned around and told jenny that she loved her?
oh, and jenny schecter... well, somebody should just through a brick at her and she should die (i swear to god that i was channeling katie right there).
i feel bad for tim haspel...
kit porter is... well, i’m still not sure about kit. i feel sorry for her, yet i don’t like her at the same time. i think i’m biased because my parents are both alcoholics.
alice pieszecki. wow, i love her. the sarcasm, the outspokenness, the... wow, it’s like i’m in love with myself. somebody shoot me now (no katie, that wasn’t actually an offer). the only downside to alice’s character is that she’s bisexual... and well... she makes up for it because leisha hailey is a lesbian (an extremely hott) lesbian in real life.
finally, we have dana fairbanks. i want to marry dana, and like alice, i’d kill tonya to do it. i think that dana is the most realist character on ‘the l word.’ she’s got that whole sarcasm thing going on, she makes these lame jokes that are funny just because they’re so lame, and her facial expressions are adorable. plus, dana is the only chick that gets as nervous as i do around chicks they like...
so, that’s it, that’s my ‘l word’ entry. god, i have to get showtime before february.
well, i’m off... i’m exhausted... not sleeping well. oh, and i have to figure out my budget because i want to bring grams out to dinner for her birthday this weekend...
if i just breathe...
christie
white houses → vanessa carlton
crashed on the floor when i moved in
this little bungalow and some strange new friends
stay up too late and i’m too thin
we promised each other it’s ‘til the end
now we’re spinning empty bottles
it’s the five of us
with pretty eyed bois girls die to trust
i can’t resist the day, oh i can’t resist the day
jenny screams out and it’s no pose
‘cause when she dances she goes and goes
beer through the nose on an inside joke
and i’m so excited i haven’t spoken
she’s so pretty and she’s so sure
maybe i’m more clever than a girl like her
summer is all in bloom, summer is ending soon
it’s alright, and it’s nice not to be so alone
but i hold on to secrets in white houses
maybe i’m a little bit over my head
i come undone at the things she said
and she’s so funny in her bright red shirt
we were all in love and we all got hurt
i sneak into her car’s cracked leather seat
the smell of gasoline in the summer heat
girl, we’re going way too fast
it’s all too sweet to last
it’s alright, and i put myself in her hands
but i hold on to secrets, in white houses
love, or something ignites in my veins
and i pray it never fades, in white houses
my first time, hard to explain
rush of blood, oh and a little bit of pain
on a cloudy day, it’s more common than you think
she’s my first mistake
maybe you were all faster than me
we gave each up so easily
silly little wounds will never mend
i feel so far from where i’ve been
so i go, and i will not be back here again
i’m gone as the day is fading on white house
i lied, wrote my injuries all in the dust
in my heart it’s the five of us, in white houses
and you, maybe you’ll remember me
what i gave is yours to keep, in white houses
in white houses
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| i swear to freaking god, if i don’t get out of this house soon, i may be forced to kill somebody. i seriously can’t take it anymore. my grandmother either treats me like a fucking 6 year old, or she acts like i don’t exist at all. she’s suddenly decided that me taking up any room at all is too much room. okay, for example, she’ll be in her room watching tv or something, and i’ll be in the living room watching tv, and she’ll suddenly decide that the set in her room isn’t good enough for her, so she must come into the living room and change whatever it is i’m watching.
okay, i know it may seem to a whole lot of people that i’m just doing a whole lot of complaining here... i mean, at least i have a free place to stay right?? god, i wish that were true, it would make everything so much more fucking simple. that’s not the case though... i pay my grandmother about seven hundred dollars a month just so that i can sleep on her fucking couch. i pay her for rent, utilities, food... i mean... it just doesn’t seem fair. am i being selfish??
i thought i was finally at a place where i could start being happy. i thought that if i just tried to concentrate on school, and try not to dwell on my seemingly insignificant problems, then everything would be fine. i thought i could if i just threw myself into my schoolwork, i could avoid everything else. so, why is it that i have a gpa of 3.85 and i’m still fucking miserable?
of course now that i’ve started thinking about what’s going wrong with my life, that’s taking up all the room there is, and it seems like there’s nothing that could possibly be going right. my lupus is acting up, so i’ve been feeling sick a hell of a lot lately. i haven’t talked to my mother in about 2 weeks now, and it seems so stupid that i feel i need my mother in my life... but it’s not. oh, and can somebody please tell me why the fuck i feel so fucking lonely all the fucking time?? it’s not like i don’t have friends or anything, i do... in fact, i have a lot of them, and i feel so stupid and guilty for feeling like this, but most of the time it just doesn’t seem like enough, you know?
oh my god! the other day i did something that i’ve never done before. i don’t know why or how it happened, but i started wondering about the what ifs of my life. what if, my parents weren’t alcoholics? what if i had never been diagnosed with systemic lupus, or any of my other overly annoying diseases? what if the spinal meningitis had killed me when i was 12? what if i had never moved out of newington? what if i had never come back to newington? what if my father didn’t sexually abuse me when i was 13? what if my best friend hadn’t stabbed me in the back when i was in high school? what if i had graduated high school on time? then there was the what if that i hadn’t thought about since i came out of the closet... what if i was heterosexual? where would i be right now if i hadn’t had to climb over all of these obstacles? why did i even start thinking about these things? i don’t know... i mean, it obviously only made me feel 25 times worse than i felt before i started thinking about it.
okay... here's the most depressing avril songs in the world, 'cause it seems like it has become my theme song. my life fucking sucks. wow, katie, you were so right...
nobody’s home -> avril lavigne
well, i couldn’t tell you why she felt that way
she felt it every day
and i couldn’t help her
i just watched her make the same mistakes again
what’s wrong, what’s wrong now?
too many, too many problems
don’t know where she belongs
where she belongs
she wants to go home, but nobody’s home
that’s where she lies, broken inside
there’s no place to go, no place to go
to dry her eyes, broken inside
open your eyes, and look outside
find the reasons why
you’ve been rejected
and now you can’t find what you’ve left behind
be strong, be strong now
too many, too many problems
don’t know where she belongs
where she belongs
she wants to go home, but nobody’s home
that’s where she lies, broken inside
there’s no place to go, no place to go
to dry her eyes, broken inside
her feelings she hides
her dreams she can’t find
she’s losing her mind
she’s falling behind
she can’t find her place
she’s losing her faith
she’s falling from grace
she’s all over the place... | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | melanie c --> never be the same again | | Subject: | christie05 | | Time: | 11:34 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/dwaggins/smile.gif) accomplished |
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hmm... i think i'm just gonna go with christie05. i'm sorry i'm such a pain in the ass. it just seems that as of lately, i've been making a whole lot of changes to a whole lot of things. so, that's my new LJ user-name. add me! | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | this disaster --> gush | | Subject: | oh thank goodness... | | Time: | 01:55 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/dwaggins/think.gif) contemplative |
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oh thank goodness... i didn't fail my test. now all i have to do is make it through my EKG practical exam tomorrow and my national healthcare association clinical medical assistant certification exam on friday. god, i feel like i'm in high school and freaking out about the SATs again. stupid exams...
you know what i just totally realized?? i can listen to my launchcast player at school... well, when they decide not to keep up the firewalls anyways... i don't know why the hell sometimes things are blocked and other times they aren't. it's not like there's a set time of the day that the walls are up or down either, they just decided to go up at the most random times in the world. also, go figure, it decides to go up just as i'm listening to gush (formally the murmurs... you know, with leisha hailey from 'the l word'... god i love her). and speaking of 'the l word,' i get to go home and watch it today. go me! um... i also think it's time i started seriously looking into DSL.
oh! so, if i haven't shared with you yet... i've made a decision over the weekend. as soon as i get a new job (and believe you me, i'm looking like crazy), i'm putting away weekly amounts of money (not like i'm not doing that anyways) for a car, and once i get a car, i'm looking for my own apartment. oh, and the offer still stands if anybody's looking for a roomie, 'cause i would much prefer sharing an apartment than living in one all by my lonesome. so, if anyone's looking to get out of whatever place they're living in now and wants a roomie, let me know.
dammit... i can't believe it's only 1:30pm... i'm going to be so fucking bored until school lets out. i have all my work done that's due tomorrow, so i can't work on that, i can't just surf the net 'cause everything is blocked, and oh my goodness, somebody just shoot me now.
so, unfortunately, i have to go into school on friday, but i do have monday off. a new group of people is coming in, and the first day of new starts is orientation. since the people that are already here have already had orientation, we get to stay home. so yay! hmm... actually, i bet this weekend will actually kinda suck, since, you know, i don't have anything to do. fun is...
okay, so i'm bored and i have nothing else to say. i'll probably go surf around google and see if there is anything that isn't actually blocked, though i doubt it. wish me luck and i'll talk to everyone later.
still a hobbit,
christie
p.s. katie, if you call me tonight, i'll actually talk to you this time. LoL... well, i thought it was funny anyways... | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | white houses --> vanessa carlton | | Subject: | well then... | | Time: | 09:42 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/dwaggins/blah.gif) disappointed |
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well, i think i totally just flunked my test on EKGs... lucky me.
okay, so does anybody else watch 'law & order: special victims unit'? is it just me or does it seem like season six is turning out to be a totally detective stabler-centric season?? where the hell is detective benson all the time?? good news though... next week looks like it's an olivia-centric episode and it looks awesome. also looks like one of our beloved detectives gets shot at and olivia just may do some shooting of her own. what is it about chicks with guns that are so hott??
so, last night i did go out and buy 'the l word' and vanessa carlton's new album. i'm holding off on britney spears... maybe i'll just keep it in mind for christmas. surprisingly enough, i wasn't exactly impressed with the first episode (parts 1 and 2) of 'the l word.' 'law & order: special victims unit' will remain my number 1. of course, i've technically only watched the first episode of 'the l word,' so things could change (doubt it though). oh... unless they don't start bring olivia into more of the stories this season on SVU...
anyways, i have nothing more to say at the moment, and i need to go freak out some more about that test...
disappointedly yours,
chris | | comments: Leave a comment |
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today is definitely going to be a good day. pretty much everything that's due on thursday is already done and i'm definitely going to get good grades again for this term.
i've got a doctor's appointment after school to have my arterial blood flow checked, but that's not gonna be anything major, as a doppler ultrasound is painless. then from there, i'm going out to best buy where i'm gonna buy 'the l word' on dvd, vanessa carlton's new album 'harmonium, and 'britney spears greatest hits: my prerogative' (yes, go ahead, laugh and make fun of me... i certainly know you will katie). so, i'm very excited.
unfortunately, my blood work from my last doctor's appointment showed that my lupus is acting up big time, so even though i'm not sick yet, dr. z upped the prednisone to 20mg 2x a day. oh well, i'll just have to deal with it... as long as i don't get sick again like i did last winter, i think i can deal. i'm gonna talk to him about alternative treatments on my next appointment november 23rd.
it's been decided that as soon as find another job (here's hoping with toys 'r' us), grams and i are gonna start putting away weekly amounts of money so i can get a car. i'm moving out... my goal is to be out of my grandmother's house by my 21st.
ohh!! i heard avril lavigne's new single 'nobody's home' on KISS 95.7FM last night. it was so exciting, 'cause that's my favorite avril song. so, now i've predicted every single new single coming out (by the artists that i listen to) for over a year now (including britney, avril, michelle branch, vanessa carlton... you name it). okay, i'll shut up now. i've got to get back to class.
majorly excited,
chris | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | here with me --> michelle branch | | Subject: | hehe... | | Time: | 09:25 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/dwaggins/sad.gif) cold |
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okay, one sentence for everyone...
THE L WORD COMES OUT ON DVD TUESDAY!!
and you can bet your ass that best buy is carrying it!
hmm... looks like it's gonna be a good week. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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i'm not surprised that bush won. when i went to bed the night of the election, i knew that sometime during the next day, bush would be announced as the president of the united states. i suppose deep down inside, i knew it long before election day ever came.
i'm not saying that i didn't have any hope at all that kerry would beat him. i wanted that more than anything in the world. i know it seems weird to a lot of people who live in connecticut that anybody would vote for bush, but connecticut is a democratic state, so the majority of the time, we only see the people that supported kerry. i'm also not saying that there's nobody in connecticut that supports bush... unfortunately there are.
the vote came down to moral issues. many people in the united states agree that bush has higher moral values than kerry does. people didn't vote for bush because of the economy, or taxes, some not even for the war... they voted for him because he's so damn set against gay marriage, civil unions and abortion, because according to the bible, those things are wrong.
i'd like to say i'm better than these people, that i voted on a purely political aspect of the canidates, but i'd be lying. a huge reason i voted for kerry was because he doesn't believe that gay marriage or civil unions should be banned. he doesn't believe in gay marriage himself, but he doesn't believe that it should be banned. at least that's a start.
it saddens me that the president of the united states is a man who wants to take all of my rights away as an american citizen just because i'm a lesbian. wasn't american founded on the basis of freedom? people came to this country to escape persecution because of their religion, and now the country is being divided because the bible says that gay marriage is wrong. correct me if i'm wrong, but aren't religion and politics two entirely different things?
i'm a little upset with my mother right now. i can't understand it, but she voted for bush. when i asked her why, she replied that she didn't believe that kerry could protect this country. protect it from what, the imaginary weapons of mass distruction in iraq?? people seem to conveinently forget that we are at war with the wrong country. i'm just confused as to how she could vote for a man who wants to take away my rights, and then tell me that she doesn't have a problem with my sexuality. i'm probably over-reacting, but honestly people, a lot of you don't know what perspective i'm coming from here.
complaining isn't going to get me anywhere though. the election is over, and bush is the president. nothing i say or do is going to change that. so, for four more years, i'll suck it up and learn how to deal, and i'll know i'll make it through. after all, i'm still here after his last term, right? | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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okay, i know there are people out there my age that still have absolutely no idea what they want to do with their lives. i know for a long, long time i've been saying that i want to go into the medical field. so, i tried the nursing thing, and i realized that at the time i wasn't ready for the whole college thing. now i'm doing the whole medical assisting thing, but truth be told, i'm bored. i've taken courses, done the clinical stuff, and i think i've figured out that i don't really want to be in a medical career.
i've always wanted to do something important. when i was younger, i went through the whole stage of, i wanna be this, i wanna be that. just like millions of other children i've gone from wanting to be an astronaut, a veterinarian, a surgeon, a lawyer, a doctor, a firefighter, a detective. you name it, i wanted to do it. like i said though, that's when i was younger, and everyone went through that stage. now, as i've gotten older, i've realized, i really have to make a decision about what i want to do.
the more and more i think about, the more and more i want to try out the law thing. i've been through a lot in my life, and i know that a lot of other around me have too. through personal experience, and from experiencing what the people around me have gone through, i keep going back to a career that i'm fairly certain i could have a lot of fun with (well, maybe not, as it can be a depressing career i'm sure). i want to go into crimial law. specifically, sex crimes.
okay, i know there are people reading this and thinking, "girl, you've been watching way too much SVU." look, you people can believe what you wanna believe, but there are reasons that i'm so into SVU. there are people out there that know about why such things draw my attention. if you don't, well, maybe there are reasons why i haven't told you, and you'll just have to live with that.
anyway, i know this has been a boring entry for everyone, but i just felt like getting that out. grams doesn't want me to pursue law, as she wants me to go back to st. joseph and graduate as an RN. well, for the first time in my life, i feel like i need to start living my life for me, and i'm finally happy about that. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | in the sun --> joseph arthur | | Subject: | here we go... | | Time: | 07:08 pm | | Current Mood: | content |
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called kevin tonight and told him that 'tru calling' had been cancelled. he was very upset. the show was terrible, but i'm kinda gonna miss seeing eliza dushku on television once a week.
speaking of television... i really need to rant here. tuesday night's episode of 'law & order: special victims unit' was terrible! the plot was boring and the acting was terrible. how do actor's suddenly suck when they've been playing the same parts for 6 years?! mariska hargitay had one 60 second scene where she seemed be all there, but that was it. benson and stabler seemed so distached from each other through the whole episode, and it was not cool. since when did elliot start referring to olivia as, "detective?" okay, i'm done now.
so i went out with beth ann last weekend with the intent to buy the new vanessa carlton album that was supposed to come out on last tuesday. it wasn't out... turns out it won't be out until november 9th (if they don't push it back yet again). so, i ended up buying the soundtrack for the first season of 'the l word.' so, it wasn't a total lose. plus, i can look at the bright side... vanessa carlton's album and the first season of 'the l word' on DVD both come out on the same day. it'll save me a trip to best buy. oh, and katie, she does not sound like a goat.
speaking of artists that katie thinks sound like a goat, i was watching 'buffy the vampire slayer' the other morning and a commercial came on. now, i was confused for a moment, as i knew the chick in the commercial was definitely michelle branch, and i had no idea what she was doing on some random tv commercial. turns out it was one of those stupid burger king commercials telling people to vote. i didn't really pay attention to what she was saying, so much as just looking at her.
oh, and more commericals. last friday night, i was on the phone with katie, and we were watching tv together. i think we were watching 'world's most outrageous behavior,' or some stupid show like that where people video tape themselves almost killing themselves and then send it into a tv studio so that the rest of american can laugh at them, even though the rest of america is just as stupid as they are. sorry... anyways, a nyquil commercial came on and here's the conversation that followed:
me: oh my god, that's peter hermann! are you watching the nyquil commercial?
katie: yeah, why?
me: see that guy?
katie: which one, the sick guy or the guy in black?
me: the guy in black. that's the guy that mariska hargitay married.
katie: really? he's kinda cute.
me: katie, you're not helping.
katie: what? it's not like i needed to know that was mariska hargitay's husband.
me: katie, you're my best friend, of course you needed to know.
yeah, it was fun. yes, i'm am totally aware that there isn't a single person who's reading this that actually cares. since that's the case, why is anybody reading this anyways? oh, and i saw a prilosec commercial with peter hermann in it this afternoon. again, nobody cares, but i thought i would share.
so, yesterday i felt so sick. oh, and my wrist has been killing me lately and my nurse thinks it's carpal tunnel syndrome. so what the fuck am i doing on the computer. c'mon, when was the last time i actually listened to my doctor. i'd rather have the damn surgery and get it over with than give up the computer. i'm a writer, i can't give up the computer. anyways, i have an appointment at 3pm tomorrow to see my doctor, so hopefully he can tell me what's wrong (though i doubt it). there's no way in hell i'll let him raise the prednisone again... they'll have to wrestle me down and force it down my throat.
i'm gonna be on SJC campus this weekend. yes, pretty much all weekend. beth ann's boyfriend just broke up with her and i get to play best friend. yes, i am doing this by choice. anyways, if anyone misses me... i'll be around, so stop by and say hey!
forever bored,
chris | | comments: Leave a comment |
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random bit of useless (and oh so disappointing) trivia. iyari limon tried out for a role in the second season of 'the l word' and just missed getting the part. how much does that suck?
off to the mall tonight to hang with the grandmother and my aunt. oh my god, i sooo need to get a life... hit the cell, (860)218-5647... well, hopefully kelly is bringing the kids...
why the hell is it always so fucking cold in this house?? | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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sometimes, i wonder why i even bother... | | comments: Leave a comment |
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so, last night, katie told me that michelle branch looked like a chinese whore... or something along those lines. so, katie thinks she looks chinese, and mykael thinks she looks like an eskimo. seriously, every single time i listen to michelle branch, he goes, 'eww, how can you listen to a singing eskimo?' so not cool. so katie, i went out and found a new icon, just for you. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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okay, so i had this really weird dream last night were i was dying of some unknown disease thingy... i was a lot like that new show "medical investigation." anyways, i was extremely sick in this dream, but it was weird, 'cause i really did feel really sick. well, turns out that i felt that way 'cause i really am. i took me an hour to get up this morning because i hurt so badly, and my joints were all locked up. i really, really hate having arthritis sometimes. oh, and i can't call my doctor about it because his ultimate solution to everything is to raise the prednisone. over my dead body, i'm trying to get off the stuff, and i'm not gonna give him a reason for keeping me on it. thank god i had painkillers in the house.
hmm... well, i don't really have much else to say. i think i'm gonna go force myself to eat something and then watch 'all my children.' | | comments: Leave a comment |
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1. mariska hargitay got married on august 28th
2. alyson hannigan's sitcom (americana) did not get picked up by nbc
3. amber benson guest starred on an episode of "cold case"
4. iyari limon guest starred on an episode of "the drew carey show"
5. ginny weasley's full name is 'ginevra weasley' (not ginerva, katie... it's italian), not 'viginia weasley'
6. book 3 of the new evil willow series is out
7. i should really be put on medication for my raynaud's
8. apparently there's a special edition box collection set for BtVS coming out in november
9. it's supposed to rain on saturday
10. i have homework that i haven't started on due next week | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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well, i haven't really updated in a few days, so here's what's what.
friday night i went to see "resident evil: apocalypse." personally, i loved it, but had quite a few problems with the film. this was all probably because it had a different director than the first movie... i won't go into specifics as i'm sure there are still people out there that want to see it and haven't yet. don't get me wrong, i still loved it, and i definitely recommend it, especially if you saw the first one. too bad they killed off rain in the first one...
i worked all weekend and yesterday. it's not so bad working at dunkin donuts when there are people on the same shift that i actually like and get along with. saturday was long and boring, as was sunday. yesterday however was awesome. there's this particular girl, mirtalis, that i get along with awesome and she was working the 3pm-6pm shift with me last night. there are these little timers for the coffee ('cause we have to remake it every 18 minutes), but nobody ever uses them because the coffee's always gone way before 18 minutes are up. anyways, one of them kept going off, and we didn't know how to make it stop, so mirtalis asked me what she should do. i told her to through it up against a wall, so she instead turns it over and removes the battery. her idea probably would have been better than mine, if she hadn't ended up dropping the backing into the freshly brewed pot of french vanilla coffee. it was hilarious. we pretty much just like talked about everything and nothing during the entire shift and it ended up going by pretty quickly. i got really stuck in one of the conversations though... she asked me if i had a boyfriend, so of course i told her 'no, i'm gay.' then we started talking about weekend plans and i brought up pride (4 days!), and she of course asked what it was. how do i explain pride when i've never actually been myself?
yesterday in class, we did our first blood tests on actual people (each other). while wayne missed my vein (i have very small veins, so i don't blame him... besides i've grown up with needles, i don't even feel them anymore), i totally got his. i was so excited... my first blood test and i didn't miss, or have to dig or anything. plus, i was the first person in the class to actually hit anything, so it made me feel special. maybe one of these days you i'll be working one of the blood drives you guys go to.
oh, i totally have to call meg spiltor and joline... if i can remember jo's extention... well, katie has it, i'll ask her tonight. we need to make some plans for friday night. well, that's it for now... i leave you with this fun thingy i stole from tankfreak.
all my love,
christie
p.s. stephie, you were chosen at random, don't kill me. please? LoL | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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first things first... katie, i owe you an apology. well, look at it this way... there's the proof that my grandmother is psycho when it comes to my sexuality. we ended up arguing about the whole thing for over an hour. for everyone who doesn't know what i'm talking about... well, i was on the phone with katie last night (just like i am every night) and i was telling her that i finally told the people in my class that i was gay. it's not like i just popped out with, "oh, by the by, i'm gay." there was a whole conversation, and i figured since i had known these people for a month now, i was comfortable to tell them. it came up in conversation, that was that. anyways, grams likes to evesdrop on all my phone conversations, and she flipped out. so, i was yelling at her, and she was yelling at me, and the whole time, poor katie is on the phone wondering what the hell's going on. so katie, i'm really, really sorry. call me tonight, and i promise, we'll be able to have a normal conversation.
so, today was the very first day that i got to poke things with needles. fortunately for everyone in my class, we only did it on fake arms. i wonder when we'll actually be able to do it to each other. by the time we are done with the phlebotomy section (taking blood), everyone is going to feel like a human pin-cushion. this of course is all fine by me, as with my extensive medical history, i'm so used to needles by now that i don't even feel them. well, by how well i did with the fake arm, i really don't think that phlebotomy is going to be any kind of problem. i hope... you know, for the sake of my classmates...
okay, so after school i'm gonna do any homework that needs to get done, then i think i'm gonna take a nap. naps are fun, and i feel that i don't take them nearly enough. LoL... jessie will tell you how often i need a nap. nah, it's just between work and school... i'm exhausted. i'm pretty sure i'm gonna have to work tomorrow afternoon, and i will be working saturday and sunday as well. now, i don't know what's going on with the whole "hand and foot tourney," as meg has posted that she can't make it down here. so, i don't know if i'll be going out to SJC this weekend...
next weekend is pride... and i told a bunch of the girls that katie and i would go up to SJC on friday. hey, at this point, i have absolutely no idea who is still interested in going to pride, but if you are, let me know. katie, meg spiltor says that she wants to go... i don't know if she's going to crash at my place or if we're going to pick her up on saturday... i have to find out. so girls, if i don't see you this weekend... i'll try to see ya next weekend.
well, that's all for now. i don't think i'll be able to make it on to the internet this weekend as my brother is being a mega bitch. maybe i can pick up a phone cord or something... anyways, i'm pretty sure you all have my number and know where to reach me. i'm gonna go work on my anatomy book. i'll talk to everyone later!
all my love,
chris | | comments: Leave a comment |
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